Procrastination Creationist

What if we all got to be what we thought it was that we really wanted to be and then found out that it isn't desire per se, that led us there, but the fact that we're predisposed to throw our hearts into whatever it is we aren't allowed to do... Like toddlers. With credit cards. And a remarkably spry portfolio given the times...

What if we're only good at the things we do while procrastinating in general? Everything from blogging to chatting to hitting up Starbucks to STAYING HOME SICK is markedly more enjoyable while you're at work and/or supposed to be at work...

I guess that can be extended to all sorts of situations... Food is more tempting when you're on a diet, sex is, well, sexier anytime other than 10pm to 11pm, even a slide rule can be considered a toy if it comes with a whip and a ball gag... So why is it surprising that working is more fun if it's for my NOT job?

The essence of my conundrum: what if I can only focus on writing while there's a deadline for something else pressing up against my paycheck?

It's just that it's harder to write on Saturdays. It's harder to focus after work. It's harder to be invested in a storyline or a concept when there are 10 hours of couch-time staring at me from across the weekend. Maybe I need to NOT be a writer just to get something written down? Always while I'm supposed to be building a powerpoint...

But I guess I have a similar yen to try my hand at carpentry... and to start an NGO... and to play professional soccer... and to be an insanely rich philanthropist... (who wants to live in a world where that isn't redundant?!)

So... Maybe the career I want is to be anything I'm not (supposed to be doing), as long as I can write about it?